IT MUST BE SUMMER THE WAY PEOPLE ARE DROWNING

Jamie Mortara

when you are born in this valley they teach you
there are dogs we train
to rescue the living
and there are dogs we train
to dig up the dead
when you are from here
well
you just need to Try Harder
when you are one of us
well
You Need To Share Your Feelings
but
well
Only If We Like Them
there's always another rope
swing down by the river hanging
somewhere
over the water
back home
your father
he would blame every single doe in the damn neighborhood
for every new tomato
the rabbits surely stole
so i don't think
i need to see no casket
thank you very much
when you live here
like us
you can picture the plywood box
in your head
just fine
thank you
i saw enough limbs and organs
floating in jars at the museum
saw all the bodies
they kept away from the light
kept from becoming a piece
of the planet
again
when you are one of us
this sort of thing is such a strange
and necessary
hurt
haven't we all stared into the night enough?
do we bottle it because we want to understand it
or do we like being hideous?
you don't leave the knife in
before you eat it now do you?
death is phantom train
that will not stop for no one
to embalm this
is to press pause on a hurt
you can't bear to let end
so
it doesn't
so
it won't ever
so this is a flower
that i grew in the backyard
it's called Surrender
this is why there are too many deer cadavers
scattered around town
for it to be Coincidence
i don't know
i just don't
when you are at the throat
of this place
for this long love
i can't help but think
for some invisible reason
yeah
i'm always dying
sure
it's just that
this valley
won't ever let me
finish